ABSTRACT:
Written mostly from October 2022 to march 2023. All recorded on and iPhone and mixed using koala. This is an abridged journal of my music for the past few months. These songs exhibit themes of finding my own mental state learning canny-solitude and self-care, something I struggle with. Being codependent, and resilient; keeping others in my life as a crutch of security. I now learned my comfort is discomfort. Obtaining personal wellness from learning and course. As I have now learned to see my self grow and no longer beat myself up over deprivations of human existence. Letting go of the imperfections and perceiving them as oddities. Breaking from an artistic box can transpire into other aspects of your life. If you can't break down barriers that stand in your way, how do you expect to fulfill the things that lye behind them? In brevity; We all sometimes feel trapped in our minds. Laying my fears and anxieties on others to hopefully cure is bad self judgement. Finding a path is a very hard thing to do for many. My introspection was formed from conjecture of several art movements. The music formed was written spontaneously and all performed with little or no rehearsal. Taking inspiration from music such as: Freak Folk, Fusion, Schranz and 50's - 60's Guitar duo song book records. I began to study new fields of art such as: Fluxus and Neo-Dada. I gained my initial inspiration by living with artists who disciplined in more contemporary works outside of music; they would discuss an aperture of art. This gave me insight on performing music live. Moving to playing shows less music based and more art based allowed me to better identify musically. This could be confused with Avant-Garde. Music might sound experimental but not be that. By focusing on the noise that becomes the instrumentation. The songs naturally find themselves by practicing with fluidity and allowing the band to turn the music into what is heard and not what is planned. Without contradictory, this allows limitations to be applied where needed, thus, giving the TAPE some direction. Fluxus artists have been scrutinized for there obedience to the craft. I feel like the first step of knowing is not knowing sometimes. Creativity is a muscle like any other that needs to be worked on. So I started siting on my porch listening to the rain, the cars, the conversations, the winds, the trees, the open air, windows closing, doors opening and the silence around us. There is noise all the time on my front porch in Springfield. The ambience holds its own important place. You can sit outside and listen all day. The earth keeps spinning. Music is that sound; the viewer should aim to convey. What can seem so blissful to one might strike another. There's a whole world out there.
Written for: tired sad and anxious people. By the people, for the people. Leonardo Casa Roll recorded music. East Coast Experimental